I think I’m going to be Kitty some day when I have kids.
Totally ok with that.
If you have been loved by a writer, you can be sure they’ve written about you.
for sage <3
Oh Chloe… I fucking love this song. I just listened to it again, and I just imagined Ty and I slow dancing to it. It’s so gorgeous. We need to get this recorded because I want this on my iPod, damnit.
Ty got my expedited letter before we spoke on Saturday. We are having a wedding! And his friend is planning a fanfuckingtastic bachelor party!
I have a dress. I have wedding colors. I’m ordering Ty’s wedding band this week. It’s sick as fuck, btw. I have a date and a venue. I’m ordering a cake this week. My dad said he would pay for food and alcohols. We have a guest list.
Fuck me. Invitations. I should really get those out since I’m getting married in like three fucking weeks.
I have my time off from work. My flight is booked. My classes are almost over. My to do list is endless but I feel alive, mother fuckers.
I’m marrying Tyler Fischer. I’m going to be Danielle Fischer in like three weeks. I get to spend the rest of my life with my best friend and soul mate and that’s the most exciting part in all of this.
All my plans for my future are so up in the air. Plans for things that I want to do and be and see and experience and when and where and how I want to do them. The only constant is that I want Tyler to be there for all of it. I want to wake up every morning to him. I want to have kids with him (some day in the very far future). And have a family with him and argue with him about how yes, she’s getting a time out because she said a bad word and no, I didn’t mishear her and no, you can’t let her out of it early because she’s cute. I want to grow old with him, and hold his wrinkly hand in mine and tell him he’s just as beautiful as he was the day we met even in fifty years when we are old and retired and getting stoned before the grandchildren come over. I never want to be with any one else because nothing could ever compare to him. Nothing compares to the way he makes me laugh. Nothing compares to the way he balances me. Nothing compares to the way he holds me. Nothing compares to the way he makes me feel, about him or myself. No one could ever be as kind, compassionate, funny, intelligent, or gorgeous as he is, inside or out. And I feel incredibly lucky that he wants to be with me the way I want to be with him. For life. I have a concrete plan for once, and there’s nothing scary about it. I am only excited and overjoyed to know that he and I have a future together.
Which reminds me… I still need to write my vows.
I am in a good financial place…
I keep doing the math repeatedly. Obsessively. Because I can’t believe it. I can’t fucking believe it. My responsibility and hardships are finally paying off. I just… CANNOT.
In the last year, I have paid $1,350 for school. I just found out that I can get reimbursed by a college account my parents brilliantly set up for me years ago. The account started at $5k and has since grown to just over $9k. I have kept every one of my receipts filed away neatly for years, not even knowing of this possibility. Conveniently enough, I have some bonds from my great grandfather, god rest his beautiful soul, that just matured.
$1000 check for reimbursement coming next week.
$800 in bonds cashed today.
$350 still available to me.
And I get paid on Thursday. It should be about $400.
This means that I can pay off my therapy bill and parking citation (because those dickheads rejected my appeal). I can pay for my $400 plane ticket and $600 car fix. And I can pay for the wedding expenses on my own and pay Tyler’s account the $300 I borrowed. And since my car insurance went down, my bills are easily covered. Oh and when my bachelorette party happens, I’ll actually be able to enjoy it, and not be the broke DD. I’m so happy.
I can’t wait to tell Ty!! I’m so happy right now. I’m unbelievably thankful that I saved all of my receipts like a nut. And so appreciative and grateful to my parents and grandfather for the gifts they have given me. I would be so stressed right now otherwise.
This really brings new meaning for me to Thanksgiving. I have so much to be thankful for. The financial grace I have been gifted. The $8k remaining in my college fund. A soon to be working car. Family, friends, a job, a refreshing outlook and stress free feeling. And a beautiful, loving, and wonderful fiancée.
Things are really falling into place.
Thank you, Universe.
I found a dress!
And my money went to a great cause! The money raised goes to help breast cancer survivors and their families. The founder was there and she was so sweet. I was so proud to be there.
I’m not going to post any pictures until after the wedding but it’s very pretty. A little form fitted, v neck, beaded spaghetti strap, with a Greek style train. It’s simple but elegant and perfect. I’m so happy.
Hopefully I get to talk to the groom today and update him and hopefully he’s down for all the updates.
I’m just happy right now.
Oh and I might get reimbursed for my school payments which would allow me to fix my car, pay for my flight, and pay for the wedding.